Sunday, February 19, 2012

No man is an island.

Artists are often alone...memorizing lines, taking photos, painting a landscape, sculpting a masterpiece, practicing the trumpet, vocalizing in the shower. While the very creation of art may be a very personal and at times "isolated" experience, or, at its pinnacle, a way to give thanks to our higher power for giving us the gifts, I ultimately believe.that the shared experience of art is the true expression and most powerful gift. "But if that light's under a bushel, brrrr...its lost something kind of.crucial!"

I was involved with an actors group in New York City on-and-off for quite a few years. While we sometimes struggled to find a focus or solid format, one thing was certain...the group consciousness was the important element - the tool for growth and enlightenment and discovery. Even if we can come to knowledge on our own...and of course we do all the time, how glorious to share in the discovery of knowledge in a group. We are after all a collection of spirits making our way day to day as best as we can. I for one am a better human being because of.the collective forces in my life. Alone I am potential...with and through the collective force of "others" I am fulfilled.

It is in the group consciousness that we grow exponentially...alone we only have one perspective...ours. With others the perspectives are endless.

I am grateful for the groups of people in my life: artists, teachers, friends, colleagues, fellows...all of whom give me experience, strength and hope...all of whom help me gain knowledge and grow. "There is a brotherhood of man..."

Monday, February 13, 2012

On a wing and a prayer...

I've been thinking a lot about my move to Los Angeles...mostly because I have been so grateful for all of the audition opportunities and also because of the amazing support I'm feeling since I came out here (most notably from my dear Shane).

But I can't help and pause a bit after the passing of Whitney Houston and ponder life and what it all means? I say that last bit almost tongue in cheek because clearly none of us knows what it all means, but it represents the magnitude of what I am feeling. And she died literally a few miles from where we live so it was even more intense for some reason.

Let's face it...none of us are perfect. And I doubt there are many out there who have the perfect life they might have chosen for themselves were that even a possibility. But, there are some, who seem to be able to face their demons better than others - to find a way to sobriety (I use that term very loosely to represent a way of living that focuses on recovery from whatever ails us) and walk life's pathways with joy and gratitude at least a majority of the time. That is not to place judgement anywhere, it is merely an observation. There are those that seem to live in each moment as if it were their last; they take life by storm with a big smile and a bigger breath and they just march to their drum!

That is what I am hoping to do with this move to LA. Yes, it is about me trying to work in the realm of my career as an actor and writer and artist, but moreover it is a chance to begin the phoenix rising out of the ashes (I realize I use that image a LOT). I want to be able to shed the fear of insecurity and doubt and mistrust...I want to focus on all that is positive and good and POSSIBLE. I want to maintain my own semblance of sobriety that allows me to make the healthiest, strongest and most joyful choices for my life and for the life I am creating with my partner.

I am well-aware as I find my way through my 40s that life really does happen on life's terms. And so often we feel like it's "on a wing and a prayer!" But I also believe that if we are open and joyful and constantly reminding ourselves of the gratitude, that we will be more available to take flight and to have the prayer answered.

And of course, part of my own gratitude is being able to create...write...sing...just get projects up on their feet! Shane and I are working on a little YouTube cooking show called, COOKING EASY WITH PATRICK. We are in pre-production now and hope to have the first little episode up in March. Be on the lookout for the trailer in the next couple weeks!

Light and love to you all...

Monday, February 6, 2012

Food for thought...

It's been almost a week since I've been in Los Angeles and I have to say that the most intriguing thing for me thus far has been my discovery of the 99c store; or more accurately my introduction to LA 99c stores! I've been in plenty of "dollar" stores on the East Coast but nothing could have prepared me for the addiction that these superstores in LA have caused. I am pretty certain that I have gone EVERY day and made purchases each time. How could I not? This is not just some plastic-wrap, knick-knack store. These places have groceries and FRESH PRODUCE! Yesterday I bought the largest bunch of asparagus I have ever seen and it was only 99cents!!!

So with all of this excitement over food at a 99c store comes my reinvestment in cooking at home. Our little place is modest but it has a good little kitchen and in the first week I made fish, chile, burgers, baked chicken, veggie stir fry, banana bread, chocolate chip cookies and lots of salads - at least some of the ingredients in the meals were from the 99c store!

When I have moved in the past (and I have moved a lot in my life) I have always spent a LOT of money eating out or ordering-in those first few weeks of the move. Now in fairness, Shane was here ahead of me and I had sent him some pots and pans and my favorite big wok. But still, just the idea of having to cook when you first move can be tiresome. But these 99c stores made me so excited to be saving money that I couldn't help myself! isn't all taken care of meats and no fresh fish, and you have to be careful with the produce, especially the fruit, but overall it really is pretty amazing.

It makes me think that if these places were everywhere that folks on a fixed income wouldn't need such huge least not with food. And while people seem to point out much more these days that obesity is a huge problem in this country, I have always said that is a direct result of so many large families unable to afford healthy food with the dollar meal at McD's right around the corner. However that theory could be blown apart if the grocery dollar store were EVERYWHERE!

On another juicy note...I have had two film auditions in my first week and the second one for this little indie film went REALLY well! These auditions sure do work up an appetite. Bon appetit!